still a-live!

The rumors of my nonexistance have been greatly overstated. Mostly due to my ignoring the site here. Sorry, my egoism failed me for a bit there, and well, wedding and such kept me busy.

Let’s be honest. I’ve been reading Harry Potter this whole time. Which was great, and I won’t really go into much detail, although I might post an essay if the whim keeps stabbing me. So I clocked in about 12 hours or so on my first read and enjoyed it crazily. Could not have written a better book myself, because it focused and touched on exactly the stuff I would have, and left me with even more questions and confusion. JKR is just great that way. I hate her for tormenting me, but she’s great.

Also been doing a lot of study on theory and structure in an attempt to understand what I lack. Now I lack motivation and willpower sometimes, and I certainly lack a giant plasma TV, but I’m happy to say I feel like I’m learning again. When I’m not learning I get stuck and depressed and all those writerly excuses that we dress up as neurosies. So lots of philosophy including some Spooner, Stirner. Avoiding Rand just yet, because I don’t know if it will be productive to what I’m working for. Still reading The Origin of Consciousness…- which was displaced by Half-Blood Prince. Reconsuming McKee’s Story, beefing up ideas and concepts, lots of essays and Ted and Terry forum posts. Truby’s breakdowns, scripts, scripts and more scripts. Scripts and then Movies and back to scripts. A cartoon now and then, and back to stacks of philosophy essays. Just really trying to hammer the junk into my brain. Cause my brain is stupid, and tries to convince myself that I’m not a moron every time I turn around. But I know better than that, so I keep reading.

All of this of course in an effort to turn Nickel and Dime into something worth writing, and worth showing the Workshop and not wasting everyone’s time with. really trying to evolve some sort of work ethic through all this, but short attention span is dangerous. Think it has some sort of death wish for both of us. Need to buy pool pass. No doubt alternative form of exhaustion will do me good.
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So that’s the current state o’ Nicolle, and meanwhile it’s hot as armpits outside. Off to ponder thematic concerns and work habits, thanks for stopping by.